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CHAPTER 2 : CLUB

Yan, sa dami kong kinain. Busog na busog na ko. Parang di ko na ata kaya tumayo. Pero hindi pwede. Ayoko. Sasama parin ako. Walang makakapigil sakin. No way. Im still going.

“oh ready naba kayo??” sabi ng kuya ko samin.

“SURE!!!”ang sagot ko.

“parang may nawawala?” sabi ko ng may pagdududa.

“anu naman yun?” sabi ni kabayo(joke).

“hindi wag na lang. Never mind na lang” ang sagot ko.

Pero sa isip ko meron padin kulang. Di ko lang talaga maalala. Hmm.. anu kaya yun. Sige christa alalahanin mo. Kaya mo yan.

Hanggang dumating kami sa club. Hindi ko na naalala. Sige party lang ng party walang ginawa kung hindi mag sayaw. Inaaya pa nga nila ako uminom eh pero ayoko. Di kasi ako umiinom ng alak. Juice o tubig okey pa.

“uy, christa” sabi ng isang lalake na ngaun ko lang nakita.

“ha? Sino ka? At pano mo nalaman pangalan ko?” ang sabi ko

“christa! Di mo nab a ako naaalala?”

“Hindi, at sino ka ba?”

“Si marlon! Classmate mo nung high school”

“ah, hi marlon. Sorry di na kita kasi na aalala”

“okey lang yun. Palipat lipat ka kasi ng school ”

“Oo nga eh, kaya sorry talaga” sabi ko sa kanya ng may pagtataka padin.

Naaalala ko na nga sya. Sya yung lalake na naging classmate ko na may crush sakin dati. At niligawan pa ako. Pero ayoko kaya pinahiya ko sa sa buong school. Ang sama ko. Pero ang lakas padin ng loob nya nun. Dahil hinalikan nya ako nun. Kainis, pero hindi ko padin sya sinagot. Lagi na lang ako nagpapahiya ng tao. Lalo na kapag sobrang nakakabwisit na. kung hindi ko kasi yun gagawin. Hindi nya ako titigilan diba? Mga may sira na ata sa ulo. (joke wag damdamin).

“wanna dance?” sabi nya.

“ayoko nga..magsayaw kayo ng mukha mo!” sagot ko. Nakakairita na kaya yun.

“di ka padin nagbabago!” ang abi nya sakin. Naparang manliligaw na naman ata sakin.

“talaga lang ha? So what naman. Inggit ka?” ang sabi ko sa kanya ng medyo galit.

“wala. Namimiss lang talaga kita”

“sus, nambola pa. nakz ikaw din di ka pa nagbabago”

“hahaha. Ganun!”

Tapos nagkahiyaan na kami. Sabay alis ko. Sayaw na naman ang inatupag ko. Pero yung cp ko. Di ko padin nakakalimutan. Kainis yung lalakeng koreano siguro ang nakakuha nun. Kainis talaga di kasi ako nag iingat eh. Pero sana makuha ko yun.

Pagabi na ng pagabi. Pero di padin kami tumitigil. Eh wala na akong magawa. So nilapitan ko na lang si marlon. Magsayaw daw kami. Ayoko nga. Ang kulit nya. Sobra. Sarap sampalin(joke di ko nman gagawin).di kasi ako masamang tao. Sa utak lang yun at hindi ko tototohanin. Kasi alam ko masama. At ayokong makasakit ng tao.

Sa sobrang pagod kakasayaw, naupo na lang ako. Sobrang napagod ako. Yan tumabi na naman sakin si Marlon.

“uy, lets dance na kasi” sabi nya sakin na nangungulit pa

“sige na nga! Ang kulit mo kasi” sagot ko sa kanya, angrily.

Hay, ang galing nya pala magsayaw. Hanga ako sa kanya. Tapos nung high school kami. Ang galling nya kumanta. Pero makulit nga lang. uhm… yan biglang nag slow dance.

“uhmm…” sabi nya na parang may gumugulo sa isip nya.

“bakit?” tanong ko sa kanya na nagtataka.

“pwede ka bang ligawan. Sigurado akong wala ka pang bf o meron na?” tanong nya

“ha? Wala pa akong bf? Never akong nagkabf.”, sagot ko sa kanya na medyo nagulat

“so, pwede kang ligawan?” tanong nya sakin.

“Oo, pwede.” Sagot ko na may kasamang ngiti.

Tawa lang sya. Ano ba? Bakit ko sinabi na pwede? Eh, alam ko naming wala syang pag-asa.

“Marlon?” sabi ni kuya.

“Bakit po?” tanong nya

“wag mong paiiyakin kapatid Ko. Kung hindi ako makakalaban mo” paalala ni kuya kay marlon.

“kuya!” sabi k okay kuya na pagalit.”alam ko naming di nya gagawin yun”

“okey” sabi sakin ni kuya

Tapos hinatak ako ni ate. “sya yung crush mo dati diba. Yung pinahiya mo?” tanong sakin.

“Oo!” sagot ko. Okey guyz. Naging crush ko nga sya. Ayoko kasi na gusto din ako ng crush ko.

“ayieh!!! Kaw ha?” sabi ni ate sakin sabay tawa nya.

Hanggang ngayun crush ko padin sya. Kasi iba sya sa lahat ng mga lalake. He have the gutz. To so those things na wala pang nakakagawa. Kahit na pinahiya ko sya nun. Di padin nya ako tinigilan. Kaya pinabayaan ko na lang hanggang sa time na nagrecognition na kami at nawalan na ako ng mga balita tungkol sa kanya.

Hay ang pag-ibig talaga. Wait!, change topic.. lets continue the story na lang.

Nakita ko yung koreano na binuhusan ko ng juice. Ano gagawin ko? Kukunin ko nab a yung phone ko sa kanya? O hindi?. Habang nakaupo lang ako dun tinitignan yung koreano. Bigla syang lumapit. Nanigas ako at nanginginig. Di ko alam anung gagawin ko. Tatayo ba ako o hindi? Habang palapit sya ng palapit. Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

“Hi”, sabi nya

“ahm..ah..ahmm..uhmm”

“why?”

“nothing, uhmm.. you have my phone right?” I said.

“yes, here it is”, sabi nya na parang nahihiya pa.

“thanks”, sabi ko.

“pwede bang mahingi cp num mo?” ang sabi nya sakin.

Nagulat ako. Marunong sya magtagalog. Pano? Nag-aral sya? Ewan?

“yup!” sagot ko.habang binibigay nya yung phone”marunong ka magtagalog?”

“Oo, ditto kasi ako nagaaral”, sagot nya habang binabalik ko sa kanya yung cp nya.

“Wow” sabi ko. Gulat na gulat ako nun. Astig pala sya.

Bigla kaming nilapitan ni marlon.

“Oh, kaibigan mo?” tanong sakin ni marlon.

“Oo” sagot ko.

“masyado ng gabi. Bukas na lang. text nyo na lang ako. Uuwi na kami at pagod nadin ako at lasing na ata sina kuya at yung iba ko pang pinsan. Geh, bye!” sabi ko sa kanila.

“sige, bye!” sabi nilang dalawa sakin.

Di ko siya makalimutan. Mali sila pala. At bakit di ko nga pala tinanong pangalan nya? Kainis. Ano kaya pangalan nun. Siguro kim apelyido nun kim siguro o lee. Halos ganon ang apelyido ng mga koreano.

CHAPTER 3: NIGHT

Kakauwi lang. lasing na syung iba sa amin. Ang sarap talaga sa kwarto ko. Ang lamig syempre naka aircondition ang kwarto. Wow! Haha. Habang nasa higaan. Nakikinig ng muzik sa aking Ipod. Biglang may nagtext sakin.

=Eow! C Marlon 2h! Kmxta ka na? Nkauwi k n b?=

Akala ko naman yung koreano. Gulat ko eh.

=ui! Magrepz k nman! Christa plz. Magrepz k n!=

Ang kulit eh. Pero hindi ko padin sya pinapansin. Yan na nga ba sinasabi ko. Pinapaasa ko lang si Marlon saw ala. Kasi parang may gusto na ako dun sa koreano. Ang pogi kasi.(joke) Mabait kasi. Pero ganun din naman si Marlon. Pero parang may isang bagay na wala si Marlon na meron yung koreano nay un. Charisma? Hindi din. Pogi? Hindi din. O dahil sa koreano sya? Hindi din. Ano kaya yun.

=HI! Is dis Christa?= text message sakin nung koreano.

Nagsisisigaw ako. Ano na ibig sabihin nun? Ewan? Basta kinilig ako agad. Ganun? Basta may ganun.

=Oo, c christa Nga 2h. aNo Nga pala Name mO?= reply back ko sa kanya

Sa sobrang kilig ang bilis ko tuloy magtext. In love na ba ako?

=im Mike..kim minkey but mike 4 shOrt= what a cute name naman..

=ah! Nice name. wOw kim miNkey ang cute is it pronounce as MiNki or as minkey talga?= tanong ko sa kanya.

Bigla syang tumawag. Wow dami sigurong load.

“Hello”

“Hi”

“Its minkEy as in minki.”

<*tawa ako*>

“nice name” sabi ko

“ang ganda pala ng voice mo” ang boses nya ay parang inaantok na ”at kasing ganda mo”

“wow thanks” angs agot ko

Nag usap kami ng nagusap. Ang dami talaga siguro nung load.

Meron pang part dun na nag kokorean sya. Kahit hindi ko naman maintindihan.(nagpapaturo kai ako)

“UY! ANG INGAY MO DYAN CHRISTA! MAY KAUSAP KA BA DYAN?” sabi sakin ni ate

“WALA” sigaw ko sa kanya.

“text text na lang ulit napapagalitan na kasi ako eh” sabi ko kay mike.

Talagang kinikilig ako kapag sinassabi ko yun word na MIKE. Parang In LOVE na nga ata ako. Ewan. Di ko talaga maexplain eh. Because LOVE HAS NO MEANING nga naman. Totoo kaya yun.

=tulog ka na!= sabi nya sakin

=di pa ako inaantok. Kaw N laNg ang ma2log?=

=cge, gud Nyt N!= ang lst na repz nya sakin nung gabi nay un.

=gud NyT also, sweet DreaMs, Take cAre=

Di talaga ako makatulog ng gabi nay un. Kilig na kilig kasi ako nun. Lagi kong iniisip kung ano ginagawa nya dun. Hahaha.

So nagbukas ako ng LaptoP ko. Apple Mac yun. Wow astig. Tinignana kyung facebook account ko. Aba, daming message sakin ni Marlon. Kaibigan ko pala sya sa fb. Bakit hindi ko alam. Well nevermind na lang. ang nakalagay sa message nya:

[hello..musta na. bakit di ka nagrereply. Naiinis ka bas akin. Akala ko ba pwede ka ng ligawan. Boyfriend mo ba yung lalake kanina?]

So nagreply ako:

[boyfriend? Anong boyfriend pinagsasabi mo? Hindi noh. Friends lang. ak okey lang. eh ikaw.]

So, yun ung reply ko. Naglaro na lang ako ng Farmville nun. Wala kasi makachat eh. Katamad tuloy. Pero di pa din ako makatulog. Hindi din nga ako inaantok eh. Insomnia ba to? O ewan? Pabayaan na nga lang natin.

Lumabas ako sa kwarto ko. Pumunta akong kusina. Aba aba.. mga gising pa ung iba kong mga pinsan. Nagninitendo wii. Sosyalin ah.

“oh, christa. Sali ka?” sabi ng isa kong pinsan na lalake.

“cge, pero di ako marunong.”

“tuturuan na lang kita?”

“cge!”

Hanggang sa natuto na ako. Natatalo ko na nga mga pinsan ko na nagturo sakin eh.(ang yabang ko). Bawal mayabang. Sorry, di sinasadya magyabang. Hahaha. Yan lalo akong hindi inantok nan. Pero sumasakit na mga mata ko. Kawawa naman pala ako.

Edi, tutulog na daw sila. Bukas na lang daw ulit. Owz? Matutulog na sila. Di nga? Pagtingin ko sa watch ko. 3 na pala. AM. Di ko na talaga namalayan. Parang gusto ko na talagang matulog pero hindi parin ako inaantok.

Pasuntok na lang kaya ako. Ayoko, masakit yun. Biglang may kumatok sa pinto.

“christa?” tawag ako ni kuya.“si Marlon nan dito sa labas.”

“kuya!, di pa ako natutulog. 3 na. ayoko ng lumabas ng kwarto.” Sagot ko

“christa! Lumabas ka dyan!” sigaw sakin

“ayaw ko sinabi eh,ano ba problema ng Marlon nay an! Di pa nga ako natutulog at ang aga pa!” sigaw ko sa kanya. Talagang ang laki na ng aking eyebug. Pasuntok na nga talaga ako kay kuya.

Tapos, tumigil na si kuya. Hay salamat, peace and quiet. Pag tingin ko sa vp ko. Aba, 34 messages galling kay marlon at ang nakalagay ay puro HI, MAGREPZ KA NAMAN.

Ako’y na bwibwisit na talaga sa kanya. Kaya tinawagan ko na.

“HOY! TIGIL TIGILAN MO NA NGA AKO! PLEASE! PLEASE! KUNG KAIBIGAN TALAGA KITA,MAIINTINDIHAN MO KUNG BAKIT!PLEASE! PLEASE!”

Pagkatapos nun. Di na sya nagsalita kaya tinurn off ko na lang ung cp ko.

Nagpatugtog na lang ako. Hanggang sa makatulog na ako. Mga 4 na yun. Kainis, ang gulo kasi eh. Biglang mga 5:00 na. may kumatok nanaman ng pinto ko. Si ate naman.

“Christa? Gumising ka na dyan. Aalis na tayo.”

“ayoko pa. antok pa ako. Isang oras pa lang akong nakakatulog. Nakakairita na kayo eh.”

“christa? Bangon na. Sige, iiwanan ka naming talaga.”

“ayaw! Sige iwanan nyo ako. Wala akong pake.”

Iniwanan nga nila ako. Inaantok padin talaga ako. Buti na nga lang, nakatulog ako.

Tapos, natulog na ulit ako.

my book....its not finish yet so it dont have a name for it

Bakasyon, ang saya. Pero mainit eh. Kabagot diba? Ok lang! Basta swimming at swimming lang aatupagin ko <*tawa*>. Pero wait! May problem. Mangingitim ako(haay,naku!). Yan naiimagine ko tuloy magiging kulay ko.

Ay! Oo nga pala. Ako nga pala si Christa. Nice name diba. Hehehe. Uhmm. . . .yan ano ba sasabihin ko?. . .okey ganto na lang kwento ko na lang ang last summer vacation ko. Okey ba yon sa inyo?..great!

CHAPTER 1 : LOST

It was our vacation. Me and my cousins had a trip to a beach. It was so “COOL”<*syempre*>. Nakz naman. Daming boyz, pero syempre ayaw ko sa boyz, ang yayabang kasi. Diba? Totoo naman eh. Ang hahangin ng mga lalake sa ngayon.

Pagdating naming sa beach. Napa “WOW” agad kami sa ganda . I can’t describe it. Basta there is something special about that place na di ko makalimutkalimutan. Wag mo ng itanong dahil hindi ko din talaga maexplain. Hahaha daming magagawa. Pero namomroblema parin ako sa magiging kulay ko.

Edi, nag swimsuit agad kami. Syempre we are exited dahil ang sarap kaya magswimming! Well, dami nagsasabi “SEXY” daw ako. Hahaha, ngiti lang ang sagot ko. Syempre ayokong maging katulad ng mga lalake ang “YAYABANG” as in. konting puri mo lang sa kanila. Magiging SHOW OFF agad. Bahala sila. I don’t care naman eh.

Yan, syempre konti na lang lalangoy na ako sa dagat. Ay! Muntikan ko pang makalimutan magsunblock. Haha, yan pwede na. wala na bang nakalimutan? Tanong ko sa sarili. Syempre ang sagot ko “WALA”.

Habang nagswiswimming. Nang gugulat mga cousinz ko. Bigla na lang nila ako kikilitiin sa tiyan. Ang sarap talaga. Sana vacation na lang ang buong buhay ko. Pero okey lang! at least madami akong natututunan sa school. Wow! Makaschool na din pala ako. Akala lang ng mga kaibigan ko na wala akong natututunan pero meron. Kahit slight lang.

Mag gagabi na, di ko man lang napansin. Tuloy padin sa paglalaro. Galing ko mag beach volleyball (Oy! Hindi ako nagmamayabang). Yan, salamat kakain na. parang may dragon na ata sa iyan ko eh. Gutom na gutom na kasi. Kaya ganun ang tiyan ko. Super charap! Chicken. At oo nga pala.. 5 star hotel ang hotel kung saan kami nag check in. kaya masarap talaga ang foOd. (wait! Walang kokontra). Syempre pagkatapos kumain ng Dinner. Syempre liligo na ko. Hay yan na nga ba sinasabi ko. Mangingitim talaga ako. (haay, kainis talaga).

Syempre, tutulog na ako. Bat ganon? Parang nasa tubig padin ako. Baka mamaya din a ko magising. Wag naman sana. Ayoko pang mamatay lalo na kung sa bangungungot pa. Change topic! Uhmm..syempre tulog muna ako. Bukas na lang ulit.

ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Yan, umaga na. wait can I ask? Na miss nyo ba ako? (Joke lang). syempre kain nanaman.

“Ang konti lang ata nang kakainin mo?” sabi saken ng pinsan ko na gusto ata akong pakainin ng isang buong litson sa tingin pa lang nya saken.

“DIET ako, JOKE” sagot ko sa kanya sabay tawa.

Nacocornyhan ata yun sakin eh. Eh, kayo? Nacocornyhan ba kayo saken?

“kumain ka ng madami, alam mo ba na ang breakfast ang pinakamahalagang time para kumain!” ang sabi niya sa aken na parang alam nya na lahat na parang genius na lahat ang hilig mangielam ng buhay ng may buhay.

“OO, alam ko!”yan ang sagot ko. Sabay binatukan nya ko sa ulo.

“OUCH! Ang sakit” sabi ko.

“yan tama lang yan sayo. Sagot ka kasi ng sagot sa mas nakakatanda sayo” yan ang sabi nya. Kainis anu naman kung mas matanda siya saken. Eh, one year lang naman. Pagkatapos nun hindi na ako nagsalita. Baka batukan nanaman ako. Ayoko na. Ang sakit kaya nun.

Ay! Ang pogi nung lalake. Koreano, wow! Lahat kaming magpipinsan na panganga dahil sa kanya eh. Edi, gulat ko nung bigla syang umupo sa tabi ko. Nakz! Akalain mo pogi nakatabi ko. Syempre, kinilig ako. Tawa lang ako ng tawa. Ganun ako kapag nakakakita ng pogi. Parang sakit na din. Kasi baka mamaya sa kakatawa mo bigla ka na lang mawalan ng hininga.

“can I get your phone number?” tanong saken ng koreanong lalakeng pogi.

“sorry I can’t!” sagot ko sa kanya sabay buhos ko sa kanya ng juice na hawak ko.

Aba! Ano akala nya sa aken. Easy to get. Never! Kahit pogi man sya. Di nya makukuha phone number ko. Manigas sya dun. Edi sabay takbo naming ng mga pinsan ko.

“WAIT! HEY! YOU FORGET SOMETHING!” sigaw nong koreano saken

Di ko na pinansin. Anu kaya yun! Psycho. Bahala sya dun. Parang sira ulong di mo maintindihan.

Yan, nung bumalik ako sa kwarto namin. May nawawala sakin.

“YUNG ISANG CELLPHONE KO!!!!!!! NAWAWALA!!!!!!” sigaw ko ng napakalakas.

Takbuhan mga pinsan ko sa kwarto ko eh. Sabi nila pabayaan ko na daw ang dami ko naman daw cellphone. Aba! Iphone yun at favorite na cellphone ko. T-T syempre iyak naman ako. Buti na lang dalawang cellphone ang dinala ko. Gosh sobrang nakakainis eh. So, para tumigil na ang pagtulo ng luha ko na pwedeng magdulot na nang baha, ay pinatawa ako ng kuya ko. Syempre tawa naman ako. Yan nakakamiss tuloy yung mga gantong time na kapag sa bahay. Lagi nya akong pinatatawa.

“Christa?” tawag ako ng pinsan ko.

“bakit? Anu bay an?” tanong ko.

“tignan mo to” sabi nya.

Syempre tinignan ko yung phone nya.

=HI! Do U knOw hUz nUmbEr im Ucng nOw? I jUst found her CP. Plz! If U knOw plz! Plz! tell her. anD tell her tO see me tOm. At the café . I will giv her, the phone.=

“t.y t.y t.y” yan ang sagot ko sa pinsan ko. Nahulog ko pa nga yung phone nya sa sobrang tuwa.

Edi, nagswimming ulit ako. Syempre, yun naman talaga ang pinunta namin dito. Pagkatapos magswimming. Nag gala kami. Ganda ng view. Picture picture kahit saan magpunta.

“uy, mamaya nga pala.” Sabi ng isang pinsan ko.

“Oo” sagot ni kuya.

“anu yun?” tanong ko sa kanila.

“diba pupunta sa club!” sagot sakin ni kuya.

“huh? Bakit di nyo sinabi sakin kanina” sabi ko. Nagtataka talga ako nun.

“sinabi ko kaya sayo kanina. Yan kasi iyak ka ng iyak” sagot ni kuya na parang nangiinis pa.

Edi, nahampas ko tuloy. Well, syempre nainis ako. Sya kaya dyan mawalan ng cp. Di sya iiyak? Eh kayo? Iyakin kasi ako. So what? its no big deal naman eh. Diba?

Nag de-day dream nanaman ako. Gusto nyo malaman kung ano iniisip ko ngayun?

Sa ayaw nyo at sa hindi, sasabihin ko padin.trip lang. Ganyan talaga.

…ang iniisip ko ay, . . . . . . . .

SECRET , di pwede sabihin. Ang loka ko talga nuh?<*tawa*>

Yan mag gagabi na. Kain mu na ako. Para madaming energy mamaya.

“Hoy! Kumain ka ng madami baka di ka makatagal dun mamaya!”

“Oo, eto na nga oh, super dami” sagot ko sa kanya sabay binatukan nanaman ako.

Akala ko hindi nya na ako babatukan ang sakit talaga. Parang kabayong tumapak sa ulo ko. Balang araw makakabawi din ako sa kanya. Akala nya ha. Tignan lang natin.<*sabay tingin ng masama*>

“oh, bakit ganyan ka makatingin sakin?” tanong ng pinsan ko(kabayo)(joke)<*tumatawa sa utak*>

“WALA” sagot ko sa kanya ng pabalang.

“KAIN!!!!!” sigaw nya sakin sabay batok nanaman.

Kalian kaya ako makakabawi sa kanya?? Bahala na. basta one day mababatukan ko din yun. Hindi lang parang kabayo. Elepante na. Ang sakit sigurado nun.

Yan tapos na kumain. =)

What's love for you

Did you love me?I wish you did?

I never thought asking you this

I have secretly love you for three months

'Till the day i told you what i felt

I was afraid that maybe our friendship will be lost

You thought of it about a week or so

But boy,you stood up and ask me

"TO BE YOUR GIRLFRIEND,ahh, YES!"

With a high voice "YES,YES,YES"

I told this to my friends a they dont want to believe me

I laugh,I cry, I do everything with you

Like the song WITH U OF BIG BANG that you really loved

For 1 whole week you become great help in

making me smile an realize that there is someone who believes in me

And thats you

The first time i met you

I cannot forget those sparling eyes of yours

those pinkish lips and even that

Beautiful hair style you have

The best thing i love about you

Is that you make me laugh when im sad and

You also loves me for who i am inside not out

Its hard for me letting you go

Becauseyou have been there

By my side for so long

And i can't just make you live

Where is teenagers

And its hard for me loving you

The truth I love U

Until The end

Thats true

But goodbye for now

soon we will find tode persons who will make us happy

for the rest of our lives

I love U

never forget that

__________AKIRA____________

♥a story from the internet♥

"Love messages”

My cellphone's beeping sound woke me up one night. Used to receiving important messages only, I grabbed my cell and sleepily pushed the keys and read the message.

"Hi there! Care 2 b my txtmate?"

Not knowing who the sender was, I deleted the message right away and placed the phone on my bedside table, I tried to go back to sleep.

I had just closed my eyes when I heard the message tone again.

"Hi there, again! Care 2 b my txtmate?" again, the message said.

"Who the hell could this be asking for txtmate at the wee hours of the night?" I asked myself.

Again, without bothering to reply I deleted the message.

I was never a 'textmaniac' - someone who enjoys texting anyone and everyone even at the wee hours of night, not to mention during the day. My parents, who were always out of the country forced me to own a cellphone. They told me that having one was more convenient - they could monitor me even if they're miles away.

I wanted to turn the unit off, but since my mother was fond of calling me at night, just to check if I was safe at home, I decided not to.

Just as I was to close my eyes and return to my dreamless sleep, the phone beeped again.

Same number...Such determination!

"Ply reply 2 dis msg & b an angel & save me frm dis abyss of emptiness!!!"

I never knew why, but the message struck me. I got up and pushed the keys... I just realized I was replying to the message.

"Im not an angel, n f u want som1 2 save u, m not superman... I'm just a simple prson who u wake up at dis r of my nyt!!! Nway, do I know u?" I typed.

Seconds later came the reply.

"Nope. U don't know dis lonely soul. Nor does she know u. But I want 2 b ur frnd. I'm Mikaella Cervantes. U?"

"Just call me Julius. How'd u get my no.?" I sent back.

"Hi Julius, nice 2 meet u. Just shuffled the last two digits of mine," she replied.

That was the first and maybe the last time I met someone over the cellphone.

We exchanged messages and learned so much about each other that night. We only said goodbye when my alarm clock rang at 5:00 AM! I had to prepare for school!

And that was also how it all started. A day would not pass without a loving and thoughtful messages from her. It was only then I had learned to appreciate text messages and become eager and excited everytime my phone beeped, hoping it would be her.

Mikaella brought out something about me that I never knew I had; I realized I could also be a romantic person... even if it's just through text messaging.

"Keep me as a frnd & I will keep u in my heart. Lock it up & throw away d key so dat no1 can evr tke u away from me..."
One day, she sent this message to me.

I replied: 'In life, we seldom find a true prson & f u evr find 1, hold on & nvr let go... value dat prson coz it's lyf's gift worth keeping & holdin on..."

I never knew why, but her response sent shivers to my spine, " Value d people hu hav touched ur life bcoz u will never know just wen dey will walk out of ur lyf & nvr come back again."

I couldn't understand what I felt that moment, but one thing I was sure though... I could not go on a day without a single word from her. I'd become used to having her, eventhough we had not met personally. But truly, she already occupied a space, a large one, in fact in my life.

I texted her back. "Dont come close f l8r ull jst pass by; don't touch me f l8r ull jst let me cry; dont luv me f l8r ull jst leave me and won't stay..."

I didn't know why I sent her that message, but somehow I felt, every word came from my heart. In the short span of time we were sending messages to each other, I knew, I was starting to keep her in my heart.

I called her once. The voice on the other end was like an angel's. Soft, kind, full of love. Yet, there was something in it I couldn't define. We only talked for a few minutes. Before she hung up, she told me not to call again. According to her, it would be better if we would just text each other.

But the voice kept ringing, not only in my head, but in my heart, I'd long to hear it once more. I tried to call her again, but she never answered the phone. She just kept on sending messages and quotations, which I copied in a little notebook. Hopeless romantic? I didn't know. All I could say was that all the messages she sent me were wonderful, they came from the heart and cut through the heart.

"Though we r miles apart, u r always n my heart. I close my eyes & der u r. Even f I'll see u never, I'll always b hir 2 care 4 u, far longer dan 4ever..."

One December night, she sent me this message. By that time we had been exchanging messages for more than a month. God knew how happy I was. She was right. Although we had not seen each other, what we felt was enough to make us both realize what was keeping us together.

I sent her another message, "Loving u secretly is a hard thing 4 me 2 do,hoping, wondring that u will feel d same way 2, but I can't read r mind f u luv me 2. But whatever it is, I'll still be loving u."

"How I wish I cud really tell u how much u mean 2 me, but m afraid 2 love, scared 2 get hurt... I hope dat u will wait 4 me & pray dat u will not get tired of loving me...=)" was her reply.

And then I replied again. "The reason y I met u is bcoz of destiny but f destiny will suggest dat I'll live w/o u, den, I'll lie not by destiny but of free will."

Whenever I asked her when we would meet personally, she always answered, "Soon...soon, love...soon."

Not seeing each other did not lessen, even a bit, what I felt for her...rather, it even grew deeper and stronger each day. And I was sure, she felt the same way, too. Love messages continued to flow through our lines, between our hearts, which made us go on each day with the thought that sooner, we would see each other, face to face, heart to heart.

Just a few days before Christmas. She stopped sending messages. At first I just though she had ran out of prepaid.

But there was something that kept bothering me... I couldn't understand what was it, but it made me fell nervous. I tried to call her but she wouldn't answer. Nevertheless, I continued sending messages.

Suddenly one night, just three days before our Lord's birthday. I heard my phone's message tone again... at last!It was from her!

"Oftentyms we say gudbye 2 d 1 we luv w/o wanting 2. Though dat doesn't mean dat we stopped loving dem or we stopped 2 care. Sometyms, GOODBYE is a painful way 2 say I LOVE YOU."

I was dumfounded. I didn't know what to think of. What did she mean? I texted her back, searching for answers, but found nothing. I called her but she would not answer.

For the first time in my life, I felt so miserable...desperate... empty. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to lose her. I had learned to love her. And I wanted to be with her forever.

The following days I felt nothing but emptiness. It seemed that Mikaella took the life out of me. I missed her so much...her messages...The tones that would tell me she'd sent another loving message. Nothing around me could feel the emptiness I felt.

Tut...tut...tut...tut...tut...just a day before Christmas, my cell beeped again. It was her!

"Meet me at d café, 10 AM 2day," I read aloud, making sure the message was true, then I jumped with joy upon hearing from her again. Hurriedly, I got myself ready and I went to the mall. I knew it was still early, but I wanted to be there before she arrived.

I arrived at the meeting place ten minutes earlier. I was surprised to see her already there, smiling at me. She was very beautiful, Black, deep-set eyes that spoke a thousand words; small, kissable lips; a nose perfectly chiseled and long black hair - everything in her was beautiful. And yes, her eyes radiated kindness and love...but there was a flicker of something in them...sadness?

"Hi, Julius," said the angelic voice I had been dreaming of each night. The voice that I had waited to hear for so long. "Please sit down." "I am very pleased to meet you, Mikaella," I said, as I took my seat and gave the roses I brought for her.

"Thanks, Julius," she smiled, obviously pleased with the roses. I knew she loved pink roses.

"You are always welcome, Love" "Julius, I can't stay," she said, sadness in her voice, or was it tears? "I really must go."

"But we just met, Mikaella. Can't we talk a little longer?" I asked, pleadingly.

"I can't really. I just came here to see you and thank you for the time you shared with me. Thank you for everything, Julius. I will never forget you...you will always be here in my heart."

She was looking at me straight into the eyes, and I could really feel the sadness in her voice and I swear, there was something in her voice and I swear, there was something in those lovely yet lonely eyes...

She got up and smiled at me, lovingly.

"Tomorrow morning, please come and visit me," he said and gave me a piece of white linen paper.

I read what was written and when I looked up, she was gone. The following day, Christmas, I woke up early and excitedly readied myself,thinking of her. I hurriedly went to flower shop and bought a dozen pink roses - for Mikaella.

They lived in an exclusive subdivision.

Upon reaching their house, I told the guard who I was and that I was looking for Mikaella.

The guard stared at me, sadness and amazement in his eyes and told me to wait as he called the owner of the house. As I looked at him while he was going inside the house, only then I noticed that the house was brightly lit.

A woman went out and walked towards me, smiling sadly.

"Hi, I'm Maria, Mikaella's mother. Please come inside, Julius." While we were walking towards the mansion, she explained to me why she knew me very well - Mikaella had always been talking about her friend, Julius. I hardly understood what she was saying. I was busy thinking why Mikaella's mother was crying while talking to me.

As we came near the great hall of the house, it dawned on me that there was a wake inside, Maybe, a relative passed away, I thought. But deep in my heart, I was trembling and afraid.

As we entered the hall where so many people were silently mourning while others were praying, shaking, I asked her mother. "Where is Mikaella?"

She held my hand and silently, led me to the coffin which was surrounded by flowers - pink roses, nothing but pinkroses.

No words could explain how I felt when I gazed at the coffin and saw who was lying there. The same beautiful girl I met...

A man came beside me, I knew he was Mika's father.

"We are so glad you came, Julius. Mika talked of you all the time. She even asked that her phone be buried with her.

She said that in that way, you could still send her messages and you would always be with her."

I couldn't believe everything... My mind was in limbo.

"But how can this be? We just saw each other yesterday."

"That can't possibly be. She passed away three days ago. She had been suffering from a heart disease since she was a child," said her father.

"But..." I couldn't find the words to say.

"She told us not to bother reaching you, "her mother said, still in tears," she said you will come, and here you are.

Pain and bitterness overwhelmed me. I cried silently beside her, staring at her lovely face, memorizing every line of my friend's face, a face I knew I would never forget while I was still alive.

After the internment that afternoon, I went to the chapel she had
told me she went everyday.

Sitting there praying and crying to God, I held my phone and typed: "U taught me how 2 care; u taught me how 2 b kind; u shwd me how 2 lyk som; u shwd me how 2 luv; but ders 1 thing didnt teach me & it hurts mor - u didnt teach me how 2 let go. I LOVE YOU"

I sent the message, and though I knew she wouldn't be able to hold her CP again, I knew in my heart she would get my message. I never expected a reply, yet as my phone beeped again,felt a shiver down my spine. The sender's number did not appear on the screen, and tears rolled down my cheeks as I read the message.

"Let go of d hand of d person u love, but dont let go of God's hand. 4 if u hold 2 his hand. He may b holding d person u love n d ader hand 2 let u hold each other again."

"I will never forget you, Mikaella and will never let go..." I vowed to her and to myself as I left the church.

Big bang- Dirty cash

Dirty cash by Big bang

NoonDeuMyun MoGah Dohn DwelGgah MuhRi Ddo GoolRiJi dirty cash Eh BehBooReun Nee JooMuhNi
JehBahl Johm JakJakHeh Dohk GatEun dirty money BooMohHyungJehWah ChinGooMaJuDoh BuhRin GuNi

HakGyoEhSun HaYan MaEunDehShin HaYan BongTooDeulEe SaRangEeGoh (Dohk GatEun dirty money)
SaGwa HaNah UpNeun SaGwah SangJa SohkEn BeeYulHan JaDeulEh YohkShimEe GaDeukHeh

[Chorus]
Neh SoomEul MahkNeun dirty cash UpSseuMyun UpNeun DehRo HengBohkHaGeh SalJah MitChin SoRilGga?
Neh SoomEul MahkNeun dirty cash HengBohkEh GiJoonMaJuh DohnEe DweNeun SehSang Neh GgoomEun UhlMah

(Dohk GatEun dirty money)
DohShimEh GgalEen BaDa SohkEhn GoGee UpGo
NumChiNeun SoRiBaDa SohkEhn YangShim UpSoh
HanTangJooEhWah GuJuMukNeun GuhShi MahnYunHan
Ee SaHehGa GwaYun Neh NaRaGa MatNa

YehBbeun GyoBohkEul GaBangEh NuhKoh BahmGuRiRo ChaJa HehMehNeun Dohn (Dohk GatEun dirty money)
BooMoh JehSaSang AhpEh SsaOomPahnEeNeh BooMohHyungJehBohDa DhonEe Duh JoongYoHeh

[Chorus]

MohDooDeul yeyeye DohDehCheh EeGeh MohNee (Dohk GatEun SehSangEhSuh GgehUhNah UhSuh)
MohDooDeul yeyeye Dohk GatEun dirty money (Nee GgoomEul EeRooUh let's go)

[Rap]
Dohn NohKo Dohn MukGo MuhRi SseuDa YokMukGo
DuRuWoon Dohn DdehMoonEh Ee SaHweGa SsukGo
UhReun AhEe Hal Ggut UpShi Dah GgoomEul PahlGo
Ee SehSangEun DweJiDeulEh BohMoolChangGo
NuhEh GgoomEe EeRuhKeh ByunHal Soo ItSsuh?
BekWon HaNaEh GiBbuhHaDun Nahn UhDee ItSsuh?
DohnEe NaReul BaKkwuh NuhWah WooRil BaKkwuh?
MitChin SehSang! NuhMooNah BaBbuh

dirty (dirty) say money (money)

[Chorus]
no i don't want your dirty cash ItSsuhDoh BoolHengHeh BohEeNeun NuhWan DahlLa ItSseuMyun Mohl Heh
no i don't want your dirty cash PyungSengEul DohnEh NohEhChyuRum SahlAhBwahYa IlEun Guhn NuhnDeh

Neh SoomEul MahkNeun dirty cash UpSseuMyun UpNeun DehRo HengBohkHaGeh SalJah MitChin SoRilGga?
Neh SoomEul MahkNeun dirty cash HengBohkEh GiJoonMaJuh DohnEe DweNeun SehSang Neh GgoomEun UhlMah

[Chorus]